I miss the computer, but I'm enjoying my new domestic duties. Everyday is something new. I finally got a new vacuum today, and swiffer and dust mop. There is so much to do. I'm in the middle of doing several projects for the kids. I want to make sandpaper letters, sentence blocks, and other educational games for the kids. We're also in the middle of making a lapbook on Hudson Taylor the missionary to China.I am in the middle of writing two papers for class. Well I'm not really in the middle. They're do next week and I haven't started, although I did secure my research books I just have to write.

I have been so inspired by this website that my friend lead me to, but oh the weight of condemnation. I partly leave the website feeling like I learned so much, and I partly leave feeling like a failure what have I been doing all these years! I'm starting to attribute some of my older sons weaknesses to shear teacher error. I know he won't be good at all things, but some of his weaknesses aren't true weaknesses but just the result of teacher error (me). That's the downside to homeschooling, there is really no one to blame but you. There are many things that I underestimated that have been a hindrance to him. Not major, like he can't get into college stuff, but little stuff. Like...
I should have let him play with clay, scissors, puzzles, manipulative's, etc when he was really little. His fine motor skills have been so slow to develop. I underestimated the true value in seemingly ridiculous tasks like putting macaroni on a string and learning to color... so we never did them. It took me years to decide on what writing style I wanted to use so he literally learned parts of three before I finally decided on one. It would have been so much easier to start with the right one from the start. It has taken me a while to learn how to teach math. I need to spend a lot more time teaching. I realize that I have been giving too much independent work and I haven't been teaching enough especially with math. I think that has been my biggest realization this week, I need to teach much more.

So...I feel better now, I'm not as melancholoy as I sound. I'm grateful for the gift of homeschooling, I'm thankful to be humbled, I have hope and wisdom for the future. God is so liberal in pouring out wisdom, I've been praying and begging God for more wisdom everyday, I know he will be faithful.

So I asked my husband if he ever feels under condemnation. He said, "No, I pretty much know what I'm good at and what I'm not". And he adds, "I'm not prideful, I'm just confident." Spoken like a true humble person, he makes me laugh!

In other news...I can't wait to post pics. I have the cutest pics of all my little treasures. God has given me an amazing family, I am blessed far more than I deserve.